Im Back!!!! :)

holla blogiest!
well well well, I've been a year more didn't write or share anything. 

Now, Im back!

you guys miss me? yeah, I miss you too :*


From this time, I promises to share my feelings here hehehe :p
Alright, just it for tonigt. see ya next time!
I'll write ASAP for my long story lovelife xixixi


P.S : Now I hv a boyfriend, AMC!♥

The luckiest girl is me!

Dear God,
Terima kasih atas segalanya
Terima kasih telah memberikan aku kehidupan
Memberikanku keluarga, teman, dan sahabat
Terima kasih..
Bahkan kata "Terima kasih" ku ini takkan mampu tertandingi dengan satu kata yang Kau ucap


Maaf Tuhan,
Maafkan aku yg hina ini
Aku yg selalu mengingkari nikmatMu
Maafkan aku yg selalu berdoa kepadaMu
Meminta kehadiran seorang kekasih
Padahal, tanpa kusadari hanya Kaulah kekasih yg paling setia
Mendampingiku hingga akhir nanti


Tuhan, aku mencintaimu
Aku tahu Kau takkan mudah percaya, karena aku pun begitu
Hingga detik ini pun aku belum melaksanakan semua perintahMu
Bahkan selalu mendekati laranganMu
Sadarkanlah aku Tuhan
Bahwa sesungguhnya aku mencintaiMu

Que Sera Sera

When I was just a little girl
I asked my mother, what I will be
Will I be pretty?
Will I be rich?
Here was what she said to me
Que Sera Sera
Whatever will be, will be
The future is not to see
Que Sera Sera

When I was just a little boy
I asked my mother, what I will be
Will I be handsome?
Will I be rich?
Here was what she said to me
Que Sera Sera
Whatever will be, will be
The future is not to see
Que Sera Sera..
What will be, will be..




*FYI : I just see this song on TV which there is many childrens sing it to their mother.

PS : I Love this song badlyyyy!

God of Study

Belajar. yak satu kata yg punya banyak makna tergantung dari pandangan masing masing orang.

Bagi kebanyakan orang, belajar itu ya sekolah, nuntut ilmu, cari gelar yang tinggi supaya bisa dapet pekerjaan dan bisa hidup enak. But I personally think belajar itu ya hidup. dalam menjalani hidup gak mungkin kan cuma ada senangnya aja tau sedihnya aja? pasti tiap jam menit detik keadaan berubah dan tergantung dari kita perubahannya itu kearah yg baik atau buruk. kita belajar dari sebuah kesalahan dan pengalaman yg pernah kita lalui. ketika kita melakukan suatu kesalahan maka kita akan belajar untuk memperbaikinya kemudian hari dan hal itu yg di sebut pengalaman. banyak cara bagi tiap orang untuk belajar, gak harus dari sekolah atau keluarga kok, tapi dari keseharian kita sekecil apapun. mulai dari saat kita balita, belajar cara tengkurap, merangkak, berdiri, jalan dan berlari. semua hal itu butuh proses dan gak ada belajar yg kilat. Hanya sebagai penyemangat belajar saat kalian males coba baca deh kutipan berikut ini siapa tau kita bisa membuang jauh kebiasaan malas kita dan orang di sekitar kita hehe

Belajar maknai hidup walau terkadang sulit..

Belajar menghargai diri walau banyak kekurangan..

Belajar bijak saat kehilangan..

Belajar ikhlas saat "ia" bahagia dengan yang lain..

Belajar bahagia walau harus melepasnya..

Belajar mencintai diri walau diri kita tak lagi dicintai..

Belajar percaya walau jauh..

Belajar setia walau ditinggal..

Belajar maknai sahabat sebelum terlambat..

believe it or not, kutipan2 itulah yg jadi penyemangat gue buat gak pernah berhenti belajar. hal hal yg kita pelajari dari kehidupan ini gak kita temui di sekolah kan? So, inilah pelajaran hidup yg sedang gue pelajari. gatau kapan gue bisa naik kelas dalam pelajaran ini soalnya "ujian" nya susah dan gue gak akan bisa nyontek dari yg lain karna jawabannya ada disini. Di hati gue. Hidup ini tentang belajar menjadi manusia yg lebih baik dan belajar berkorban untuk orang lain.. kemudian ketika saatnya tiba kita akan naik kelas dan bahagia atas apa yg telah kita kerjakan. Jangan lupa percaya Allah SWT adalah bagian yg terpenting..

and now, sebenernya gue lagi belajar untuk ujian akhir sekolah besok pagi..

gak terasa kurang dari sebulan lagi gue UN haha

well done guys, wish me luck for my school exam tomorrow!

dshe ^^

whats wrong with me?

hey, its march 3rd..

waktu cepet bgt ya berlalu, tau tau udah masuk bulan ketiga di tahun 2011 aja

well, how are you guys? hmm hope you well there :)

okay, gak seharusnya saat ini gue nulis blog mengingat diawal maret ini jadwal ujian praktek padet bgt tapi gue toh sampe skrg masih nyantai haha

actually for your info, frankly now im not in a good condition!

yah mungkin klo disekolah gue keliatan ceria padahal gue gak bener2 bahagia..

gak tau kenapa tapi saat ini gue lagi mengidap 2 penyakit yaitu : Migrain dan resah haha

mungkin kalian aneh dengernya tapi ya itu bener. Dua penyakit diatas sangat mgngangu aktivitas gue sebagai orang sibuk hhh -_-

mulai dari migrain yg entah mengapa selalu ngapel-in kelapa eh maksudnya kepala gue tiap hari-sekali dtng bisa berjamjam ga pulang-slma blkngan ini. yah gue cma bisa nahan/minum obat sakit kepala.

ditambah dengan ke'resah'an hati.. agak lebai sih tapi yg ini jg beneran!

i dont know why? gue gmpng bgt sencyyyh alias bad mood dan mood gue cepet bgt berganti udah kaya ganti baju .. kaya hari ini contohnya dari pagi gue uring-uringan semua org gue jutekin, galau ga jelas tapi siangnya gue udah ketawa ketiwi sama my cowgirls ..

terkadang gue ngerasa bingung sndri, knp gue kaya gini atau kaya gitu? tapi ujungujungnya gue tetep gabisa nemuin jawabannya..

dan skrg gue jg gatau apa alsan gue mesti nulis blog pdhl bsok gue masih ada jadwal ujian, tapi ya tetep aja gue nulis kan hmm

bnyak hal yg gue rasa dan gue pikir terjadi gt aja tanpa gue tau penyebabnya, pokoknya random bangeet deh

dari kemaren malem gue kangen sama jaman SD trus sama nova,chrsty,cebe,kiki,ciphy,muti,oyi and sella-temen2 junior high school-gue pngen ngmpul breng mereka lagi, curcol, ngegossip ngejailin orang etc. udah lama gue ngerasa kaya bukan diri gue sendiri yah istilahnya gue "A Good Prentender" lah (i think)

too much secret which I kept it inside and no one knows what am i really feel exactly..

gue rasanya pengen cuci otak dan nge delete semua hal2 buruk dlm hidup gue, unfornately i can't!

gue pngen balik ke masa masa dulu sblm smua se-complicated skrg, gue pngen jd anak kecil yg gatau apapa di bnding tau semua hal tapi gabisa di share ke siapasiapa..

saat ini gue akan berusaha buat membasmi 2 penyakit diatas yah gue menganggap hal hal ini sebagai sindrom pra-UAN lah dimana gue mesti kuat dan sabar menjalaninya..

gue harap kalian gak ngalamin apa yg gue alamin skrg..

Me : "i hate headcahe but its simply like me, how bad?"

enough for tonight! byee all <3

best of luck,

dshe ^^

dinamika kelas 3 SMA

hello guys!

hmm sorry ya gabisa sering sering coret coret ini blog maklum kelas 3 sibuk ~alasan klasik

emg sih gue skrg uda klas 3 dan FOKUS UN tapi tetep aja smpe skarg H-52 gue masi jg online and santai wae haha

tapi jujur ya kalo "in my heart" mah ini rasanya mau meledak!!! why? iyalah gue takut ga lulus kali haha

ya semua anak kan pngennya lulus ye ga?

well, gue emg uda usahain belajar semaximal mngkn dr koleksi buku2 tebel ampe tipis trus ikut bimbel dtng ke seminar sana sini try out etc. tapi tetep aja gatau kn otak gue rasanya bebel bgt

gue sendiri bngung mesti gmana lg supaya semua pelajaran UN tuh bisa masuk ke otak gue hmm..

tiap mingggu di semester 2 ini kerjaan gue try out try out and try out..

pusing pegel capek muak semua campur jadi satu deh pokoknya

ya bayangin aja tiap hari mesti baca soal yg gt2 aja tp tetep ga ngerti jg udah gt mesti ngebuletin LJK, saking cintanya ama try out kadang2 suka ga sdar klo liat ada tulisan atau huruf "O" pasti gue buletin deh pake pulpen ahaha gila kan? ya emg.. begitulah dinamika kami para kelas 3 sma hehe

bagi gue and temen2 seangkatan di seluruh indonesia try out tuh udah kaya "sarapan pagi" pengganti roti kenyang bgt tiap pagi mesti makan soal dan gigitin pensil haha

yah mau gmana lg? ini kan demi gue jg, jadi mw apapun bntuknya gue mesti terima-meskipun dlm hati teriak "NO!"-semua kan yg nentuin pemerintah emg ya pemerintahnya nyusain aja sih hmm

tapi ya guys, selain pusing garagara UN skrg gue jg lg pusing nih buat ujian praktek minggu depan..

gue belom siap bgt nih, mana hafalan agama banyak bgt blm di tambah pidato b.ing and b.ind hhh -___-

susah ya jd anak kelas 3 mau lulus aja susah haha

well done guys, udah malem nih gue pamit dulu ya :)

hv a blast day <3

bye!

dshe^^

Valentine or Fucklentine?

alright, long time no see guys! how were your valentine days? well, two days ago was a VALENTINE days for every couple

but not for me. It was like a FUCKlentine!!

why i said so? let me tell you why..

First, at the fucklentine eve's i knew that the boy who's stolen my heart was felt in love with another girl. its not fair! i know that im nothing for him but i just can't accept it! it was a painful reality for me! and you guys know? on that time i saw his twitter account, his tweet was all about that girl! oh god, i can't take it. i feel so hurt! im not kidding/lying. i never felt this way before. i cried all day long! 

"I thought that from this heartache, I could escape. But I’ve fronted long enough to know!"

Second, on 14th Februari 2011 I got an accident. it doesnt matter for me if im not brought my best friend dini in a trouble. But it just happened. im really sorry to hurt her. Im speechless. im really weary that she would sick because of me. she cried that time and I just told her to go to clinic with mayang. I tried to stand up and pushed my motorcycle looking for a repair shop around. afterwards i went to the clinic and i saw her at the bed cryin' with all people she called. i was afraid that something gonna happen to her. im ignore my own pain i just thougt about her. then we picked her up to her home. i was thought that her parents would be angry to me, but they didn't. so i went home and try to pretend that everythings is okay. "But actually not, im not okay!"

Third, the day after i woke up late. I felt worst. i do everything as usual and still pretend. But i dont even know why everyone around me was too sucks on that day. my sister, my father, everyone! im tired. it feels like no one understand. they treated my like a servant and they would angry if i didnt do what they want. oh god! frankly, i asked the Goddest "why dont he take me out from this hell world??" at night i cant take it for along time. i cant survive. i asked my uncle to accompany me to the doctor, then we go. i hv to eat 4 kind of drugs and my uncle make a permission letter for me so now i can absent from the class.

and what about now? im just spend my free time to sleep and surfing. this morning my father was angry with me as usual. i wondering, what his another hobby except angry?? i got a headache and he enjoying speech to me. how's bad? fortunately, my cousin come with his girlfriend so i could runaway from my daddy! afterwards he went to some place-i dont know where-and till this time he havent yet home. i think he didnt wanna with me. and he dont even care to me. oh god, once again i miss my mother there. if she were here, she would taking care of me... "God, can you tell her that i really really misses her more than the sun misses the moon??"

but please tell her that everybody's here were fine. she doesnt hv to worry. 'cause with me everything is okay even i hv to pretend as usual. that is my only talented i hv.

well guys, i think that all what i wanna tell you today.

see ya next time!

PS : I LOVE YOU

dshe^^